My Own Worst Enemy

I’ve called my site Her Own Worst Enemy as it just goes – i’ve used it as various usernames/ aliases for a while now.

Its ironic its sarcastic and its me fighting back. My mother (I called her Mum but I struggle to use it now. Even Mother feels too personal!)

My Mother used to call me my own worst enemy, sometimes she would say i self sabotage.

Most often though – she would say

“its like your stuck in self destruct mode”

This angers me to think about.

I was in survival mode. I was my only best friend.

Was I also in self love mode, without knowing how to show it?

She was my worst enemy.