Tag: survived
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I think i’m strong.
I would say im strong willed and determined – I think I used to be more so though and I also think that, that determined resilience I once had was the lifelong lack of emotional support, the harsh critiques, the blame, terrible support, the constant drilling in that it’s “just life”. Yet id get very…
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Pay attention.
Pay attention to the people who pause after they deliver you bad news, or say something that is expected to cause you distress. If they cared about your feelings. They would fall over their words to explain comfort or reassure you following what they had to say. OR they would prepare and reassure before they…
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I don’t want to go, but i need to.
Im in a really difficult place right now, and I don’t think people realise how heavy this actually feels. I’m packing up a house I still love, a house that’s been my safe place for ten years, and I’m doing it while dealing with a level of emotional turmoil that’s hard to explain. I’m not…
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New Years Eve
Well New Year’s Eve is supposed to feel like a reset. Isn’t it? A clean slate? Of sorts? I’d kind of told my self I’d make one last effort. FulFill my obligations. And because of that desire to do the right thing that need deep inside of me to continue playing my part. I found…
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Christmas Wishes & Relief
A Quiet Christmas: Finding Peace in a Day I Dreaded This Christmas didn’t look like the ones in films or on Instagram. There were no big gatherings, no family no chocolates, dinner or clinking glasses, no gifts and no tree. For days beforehand, I’d been stressed about spending it alone — convinced it would feel…
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I wonder…..
when I changed from an individual my mother was proud of to some else whose genuine personality she was a victim of. It seems most likely it was around the time (whenever that was) that she stopped being the one who received praise for who I was. When it was instead compliments given in my…